Life does not accommodate you; it shatters you.
Every seed destroys its container,
or else there would be no fruition.
I’m taking a solo retreat on beautiful land north of Santa Fe and contemplating what nourishes me over this Spring Equinox—a time of balanced day and night, inner and outer. The crystal clear, spring fed streams that lace through this land have me musing about what most deeply supports the taproot of our Being.
Like a seed that must crack open in order to sprout, the journey of opening isn’t always easy. But there is definitely a need to quench the deep thirst that change or growth requires, like the spring is fed from deep underground.
It was an hour into my drive here before I exhaled audibly. And it was nearly 24 hours later before the tears came, lying spread eagle—finally surrendering both mind and body—on the soft, dry riverbed at the base of a magnificent box canyon.
It’s been such a full year, and this peace offering of a retreat was the opportunity to acknowledge many passages, but also to shift from the habituated day to day patterns into something deeper inside of myself—a re-membering what has fed me in the past, as well as what feeds me now.
I’ve been sleeping 10—11 hours a night, wearing my softest super-hero socks, and remembering my poetry, my photography, my creativity, and my Wild Self.
Ring the bell that still can ring.
Forget the perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That’s how the light gets in.
Just like a seed or a butterfly that knows on an inexplicable cellular level that there is a greater calling to its existence, we humans may feel something similar in our bones—a call to re-member ourselves.
So, this Spring, as the daylight hours lengthen, I offer the following questions—
• How can you reclaim yourself in this busy time?
• What can you foster in your life right now that nourishes you?
• What is one thing you can release right now that does not nourish you deeply?
For me, it’s time away in Nature, even if for an hour walk, or taking a bolder step like this retreat of five days.
It’s being alone with my horse without an agenda.
It’s stepping out of routine on occasion.
It’s trusting something larger than myself and my tiny mind and finding ways to actively practice letting go.
It’s regularly reviewing when, where, how and with whom I expend energy and being selective about that.
This will be a year of very special, distilled offerings, designed to help support your journeys—and your horse’s if you have one. I am reinstating my counseling license, this time in New Mexico, so I may practice as a therapist as well as a life coach/mentor. And I will continue teaching Holistic Horsemanship and Classical Dressage, of course, because I can’t imagine my life with out it. 🙂
If you or someone you know is interested in finding out more about Life Healing or Equestrian Arts sessions for individuals or groups, please contact me for more information. We can meet live in Santa Fe, or virtually by phone or Skype. I can also meet you or your group at your location by arrangement.